Yesterday was really just one of those days where I either pulled my hair out or just tossed the issues to God and laughed while I saw things so go berserk! So I just kind of sat back and watched and laughed! Michael thought I had lost my mind.
When I came home from picking my kids up from school one of the dogs [because I have 3] had destroyed the wiring for the cable TV leaving both me and the kids with no cable whatsoever. I wasn't too stressed out, I just wanted it fixed for the kids sake but the act of him destroying it put Michael is a really bad mood. I am really sensitive to people's moods and feelings and I tend to catch what they are feeling so I really kept my distance and showed him lots of love. He, being the wonderful fixer he is, got the cable working and so I got on the computer to Facebook chat w a Friend.
Keep in mind that the cable TV was affected, not the internet. Still, once my friend started to push the importance that I push myself to praying in tongues, the internet went out. Completely, I finished chatting with her over my phone because it simply refused to work. I called the company who couldn't find a single reason for why my modem seemed to be out of order... By this point of the night I am now chatting w both my friend Yara and my friend Jesse, both of which have become a very important part of my life and walk with God. They are just so loving, understanding and supportive. I could not have gotten here with out them. So anyways, back on the Monday madness subject, at this point as I attempt to talk to both of them, both my home and phone's internet have gone POOF! And yet, all I can do is laugh at the enemy's attempt to hinder our conversations.
See, not only was Yara explaining to me the importance of tongues [for the hundredth times, remember when I said I drag my feet when I feel like I am uncomfortable? Well this has been one of those uncomfortable things! I will go more into details about that later though. Promise.] but Jesse was trying to get me a word he got for me. Every time I went to read his message from my phone, the whole thing went blank. I know how insane I sound at saying that this was all hilarious but it honestly was.
It all comes back to what I have been saying all along. Its about perspective. Its about about choice. Its about Focus. Where is yours?
My perspective is less than perfect. Anyone can tell you that. But its a choice I make, every single day to just... Focus on God. On the positive things that are happening around me instead of the negative.
God has a plan for my life. He has an incredible future chosen for me and the enemy doesn't want me to know, he doesn't want me to access it. The power and authority that God has given me. IT, because I cant even call it a he really, doesn't want me to fulfill those plans that God has for me and every single moment that I choose to focus on anything less than God, is another minute that I am giving to the enemy, on top of all the ones that I have already given him before. That is just time it doesn't deserve from me. I have already given him way too much. If you knew me, if you knew my entire story then you would understand just how much I have given away of myself to being who is set on my destruction and the destruction of my family. Who does that? We all do. Every single day. We let him take away our peace of mind. Our joy. Our love. Well not me. Not anymore.
You are probably wondering about my choice in pictures and how they go with my posts. Some do. Some don't. For the most part they are mine, unless they are from tumbler or friends. I have this thing I do where I take a picture of a sunset/sunrise to remember that particular day by. This was taken yesterday at sunset. I wanted to remember my Monday Madness, not to remember all that went wrong but to remember my choice in not focusing on the negative but rejoicing that God was with me through it all. I mean think about it, who else but God could allow me to see the humor in all of the enemy's failed attempts of the day?
I am human and as a person I will see many days like yesterday. I will always strive to handle them all with such strong hold on God, but there may be times where I will fail....and when I do. I can look back and this particular picture and remember who I am and how it felt to stand strong in God.
Find your strength in Him. Nothing else on earth could ever be sweeter....
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