Untitled Rambling

I had this planned differently in my head but I stumbled upon this picture and I realized this fit better than anything else.

This week started off kind of rough. I tend to put a lot of pressure on myself to be flawless and strong and perfect. I have started off down this path w God before but the intense emotions got the better of me, I felt weak and in a moment of even bigger weakness, I walked away. 
Took me years to get back here, but He doesn't care how long it took me just that I came back. And I myself couldn't be happier to be here, even if at times my stubborn streak comes out. 

I was full of stubbornness and fear this week. Not my proudest moment but I am a fan of the comfort zone and I tend to dig in my heels and fight when I feel it slipping away. Its a bad habit that at this point in my life no longer makes sense. I want out of the unhappy box that I have been living in. I want closer to God. I want more of Him in me and in my life. 

I cant begin to tell you how extremely happy I am that I got pushed out of my comfort zone this week. The results [so far] have been amazing. I can only imagine how much better it will all turn out once I stop procrastinating. These last couple of days have been hectic what with the kids home and whatnot. 

[cont. a week or so later]

I feel horrible that I have so much to tell you and just don't know where to start. Today may not be the best of days to talk, my mood just inst what it ought to be and I just... I feel blocked. Stuck. I have so much to say, so much to share and the words just keep spinning in my head. I cant seem to get them all out though. God has much work to do in me still.... but he has already done so much and I dont know where to start telling you the story. Every time I sit and stare at the keyboard that is all I do. Stare. I havent forgotten about you all though, and I do want to tell you my story. Just bare with me. I know that God will find the right way for me to get it all out there to you all...